Friday, August 25, 2006
Acting Like a Jerk Again..
I did it again... I hurt someone again...
My brother had promised me to go out and eat together today, and this time I bringing mom along (we're treating her) . We had agreed to eat at 3+, after going to the airport to have a look at my workplace for the next 7 weeks.
We waited for my brother at Tampines Century Square. The place where we wanted to have our lunch is full of people. My brother gave a grin. Why? The food at that place was expensive. But earlier on I had asked him whether he wanted to go there, and he said anything. Now he backed out, in some way, again...
Then he suggest to go to Pasta Mania at TM, but I'd already told him that mom can't eat spicy and 'heaty' food, or else we could have go to Magic Wok to eat. And then I suggest the same restaurant at other places, but my brother quickly disagree and insist on going to TM. I'm already not happy with that idea, but we still go there.
At TM, I told my mom that most food at Pasta Mania are 'heaty' food because of the cheese and pepper. Then I suggest again to go to other places, then my brother told me in an angry manner that I would to pay for his transport fee if I wanted to go to other places.
I was so pissed off by his attitude, and I told my mom that I'm going home before walking away.
I heard that my mom said that I brought her out to eat and now I walk out. But I still continue walking.
I was holding my mom's pocesssions at that time, including her wallet and stuff. I heard both my handphone and hers rang, but I quickly rejected those calls.
After walking around the Challenger, I decided to head back. Then we reunited again.
In the end, we had our late lunch at Kopitiam in TM. Then my mom told us that she nearly cried, because she was at a loss... I apologised to her... But I know that is not enough...
Why must my brother make me angry, which will hurt others? My mom said that I was bullying my brother. But in truth, my brother is treating me like nobody. He thought he can just make any new decisions when it was already agreed by both parties. He didn't even feel ashamed by backing out. He's very irresponsible when it comes to promise me things. Actually it's not only me, but also all my family members. He's only thinking of his girlfriend, friends, and most importantly, himself. This makes me very sad... Coz usually I'm doing things that benefits everyone, but not me... Except recently, I'm trying to be like my brother, thinking of myself only, which is a very selfish mindset...
I feel like I'm a very idiotic jerk...
Sorry mom, hopefully it won't happen again, as long as I don't ask my brother to make a promise...
May the force be with everyone..
