Had a real bad day yesterday.. Quarrelled with her again.. This time over dinner
issue. I had already informed her that we should meet at 5pm to pass her the baby
donuts. I reached the stn at 4pm. Dev was at the work station, and since it was
still quite early, I went to the gym. After the running and showering, it was
already after 5pm, however she still did not message or call me. I was afraid to
call her as she did not pick up my call earlier on. About 5.30pm, I went to the
canteen, thinking that maybe she had already reporting for work. But I was wrong..
So wrong.. She and Dev were in the canteen, having dinner.. I was not happy,
really.. This is the 3rd time that she know I came to the stn early, but did not
ask me for dinner, espcially this time round. She knew that I will meet her to
pass her the baby donuts, but she did not ask when I was, and I seriously had no
idea how she and Dev managed to meet up and had dinner together..
In the end I just bought a drink from the stall, and sat somewhere away from them.
I quickly finish drinking and went up to the office. After a while, I saw her in
the office, and she went straight into the male locker room to meet Dev, talking
happily, completely forgeting about the donuts. I then passed to her the donuts,
hoping at least she will thank me. But the first thing she said was, "How am I
suppose to bring these down?". I was really sad.. I almost throw the donuts
into the bin, but was stopped by her. Later in the evening, she messaged me,
asking why I had threatened her to throw the donuts. She do not understand how
difficult it was to get the donuts.. She just said that I too emotional. Who
won't? It was like fail to keep an appointment.. And also I thought she would at
least show some appreciation by asking me for dinner or what, but in the end,
nothing..
I know that I had overreacted. I apologise to her thru sms, but she told me that
she wanted to sleep and don't disturb her. It's my fault. I kept saying that I
want to protect her and make her happy, but in the end I was the one who make her
upset.. I did not eat for the whole day. Hopefully things can improve in the next
few days..
