Went early to stn yesterday, to discuss with Head MPO regarding my signing on. She
called me in the noon, but I left my hp in stn. When I called her back, she asked
why my sudden decision of not signing. Then she told me that a lot of people are
blaming her for my sudden decision. Who's that kaypo who keep making her unhappy,
and indirectly it became my fault again for making her sad. I have no intention of
making her sad at all. But will she understand? I had always tried my best to make
her happy by showing others that as if nothing had happened to me. I had fought
for her to let her go outside since she wanted to drive, despite me condemned
inside the stn for more than a month. I hope she really appreciates for what I'd
done..
Went for breakfast with her and some other colleagues. However they left first as
I need to talk to CO. I tried to call her, but she did not pick up. I was thinking
of going back alone, since they left without me, however Mas told me to call Foo
to check where they were. I reluctantly called him, and managed to meet at the
coffeeshop. I think my tone was a bit harsh towards her, when I ask her why she
did not pick up my phone call. Feel guilty about it. In the end, I was too tired
to eat anything. When leaving, I tried to talk to her, however the way she talk to
me is very impatient and not really interested. I really had no idea why she
always treat me that way. Treating others so nicely, but when it comes to me, it's
like another treatment. It wasn't like that in the past..
After went back home, I smsed her, apologising for my harsh tone early, but she
did not reply. Msn messaging her, however she gave very brief statement, and went
offline.
Why? What is wrong again? For no apparent reason I'd been treated that way. Like as if I deserves it.. I'd been trying to make her happy, but the way she treat me really saddens me..
